The One Where Shep Isn’t Shep

Date: 8/18/2019

I’m in a fancy canopied bed with Renee playing with the René kids. I’m doing that thing where I lay on my back, hold their hands and balance them on my legs in the air. I hold Rowen first. I decide to say their first and middle names to each of them, but for some reason I can’t remember Rowen’s middle name until Renee says, “Hope.” I do the same with Ezra and Willow. I get to Shepherd (who is literally a newborn and looks nothing like he actually does), and I’m amazed at how dark his hair is. He’s wrapped tight in a green swaddle and he looks so perfect that I want to cry ... I accidentally post a meme on my personal Instagram account and I panic because I think that Kailee saw it.