Mom dream

Date: 3/19/2019

I finally had the first dream about mom, in which I actually acknowledge her death/passing, only two weeks before the two year mark. Thought it would happen sooner if anything. I never really had anything significant happen in a dream with her present before, I'd just see her or swap a few sentences of meaningless conversation ( like "could you get me some more coffee Lucy Loo?"). I realized the significance was that in those small seemingly meaningless moments in dreams, I completely forgot that she's not really here anymore. This dream wasn't to significant in detail either. I was just sitting on the ground, kinda curled up with my knees against my chest, arms crossed, staring down or off in space, when someone-no clue who-asked me about my mom (I think, I can't actually remember the question, it was all kind of foggy, and yet very crisp at the same time.) And I remember so many feelings going through my mind about how I've felt since she passed, and I remember all I could say to describe it, was " I walk in to a room...and she's not there...and I have to remember, that she isn't anywhere else either... I can't say hi to her. Not anymore. " that's it. I feel like it doesn't even begin to describe how I feel, and yet, that is kind of it in a but shell. I think I'm finally starting to actually accept that. With everything happening over the past two years, we've hardly even mourned. At least we all seem to think/talk about memories of her more often this year. I feel like there's a deep sadness locked up tight, and hiding in mind somewhere, because I really haven't faced this. Maybe I can start to more now. I cried of course, then fell back into nothingness.

AI generated interpretation Based on your dream, it seems that you are still working through the grief and acceptance of your mother's passing. The fact that you have dreamt about her multiple times before, but never really acknowledged her absence, suggests that you may have been avoiding facing your emotions surrounding her passing. In the dream, you are sitting on the ground, curled up with your knees against your chest, which could symbolize a feeling of vulnerability or being emotionally closed off. This could indicate that you have been experiencing a degree of emotional numbness or detachment since your mother's passing, which has prevented you from truly processing your grief. When someone asks you about your mother in the dream, you struggle to find words to describe how you feel. The description you provide - that you walk into a room and she's not there, and that you can't say hi to her anymore - captures the essence of your loss. However, you also feel that it doesn't fully convey your grief, which suggests that you may have a lot of pent-up emotions surrounding your mother's passing that you have yet to fully confront. The fact that you cried in the dream and then fell back into nothingness suggests that you are still grappling with your emotions and that you may need more time to process your grief. However, the fact that you are finally starting to acknowledge your mother's absence in your dreams may be a sign that you are ready to start confronting your feelings and taking steps towards healing.