pregnant

Date: 12/18/2016

I dreamt that I was pregnant with twins and if I gave birth to these babies I would die. I was at home lying In my moms bed and I was saying that I was sorry to her and I love her son much despite everything we have been through and the things I w said and I told her I wanted her to know all of this in case I die. My water broke and I Lew were going to the hospital and I was like can't they take them out I don't want to die . I get to the hospital which was in Antonia's building and I'm in the hospital bed and They're telling me if I either want the boy, girl, or me to live and I said me that I didn't want to die and I wasn't ready yet and all these people were looking at me like I was crazy and that was a bad choice. They said it was a 24 hour birth and I was crying because I didn't want to go through all that pain and I was going to be alone for it. I told my mom that no she had to stay with me and I started calling for antonia saying in needed her with me for it.