Sex w/ a Demon

Date: 11/19/2019

My dream starts off with me rolling around on the bed w/ my ex-boyfriend, Barry. He pulls me on top of him and we start having sex. I want to bend down and kiss him but he wants me sitting up straight, the best angle to view me from, and keeps pushing me that way. It isn't allowing for any real intimacy though. It's rough and demanding, but when he finished, he finished hard! . He said it was the best sex he'd ever had but I was too concerned w the fact that he finished inside of me to really focus on the pleasure of the release. If I became pregnant, Al wd know that I had cheated on him. I told him we had to buy 'Plan B'. He said no, we were going to Disney World. I said "Well whatever, we can stop on the way there and grab a Plan B pill from a pharmacy." He started getting dressed in a suit. With his black hair and the black suit he looked really good. He was sitting on the bed at this point, on the edge like he was about to put his shoes on. I tackled him from behind and slightly to the side, just holding him down on the bed and embracing him. I told him how good it felt to be able to hold him again, even if it wasn't real ( bc he died irl, and maybe in a way I knew I was dreaming? ). He said "it's real... Look in the mirror". I told him I didnt want to look in the mirror ( which was right across from us ) bc I was afraid of what I might see, or rather what I would *not* see - I was afraid of it not being real. He kept persisting that I look in the mirror however, so I finally did. What I saw though....wasn't him; it wasn't my Barry. It was a demon, with a flaming skull for a head. When I saw him and my eyes widened with fear, he started laughing maniacally and holding me down so I cdnt get away. I began to scream. My mum opened the door to my room but only saw me on the bed. Maybe Demon-Barry cd only be seen by those he wanted to be seen by. She assumed I was asleep ( bc I was screaming and crying so hard at this point that my eyes were squinted shut ) and that I was just having a nightmare, it was no big deal and apparently not worth "waking me up" for. So she turned around and left, closing the door behind her. When she did this, Demon-Barry started laughing even harder, and I started screaming even louder. I was screaming irl at this point and Al woke me up irl, holding me and listening to my dream, allowing me to fall back asleep and dream something new.

AI generated interpretation This dream is filled with intense emotions and themes of intimacy, control, fear, and loss. Each element in this dream carries symbolic meaning that can help us understand your subconscious thoughts and feelings. The dream starts with a sexual encounter with your ex-boyfriend, Barry. The rough and demanding nature of the encounter suggests a lack of emotional connection and intimacy in the relationship. You mention wanting to bend down and kiss him for more intimacy, but he resists and desires a specific angle to view you from, representing a focus on physical pleasure rather than emotional connection. This may reflect your feelings of dissatisfaction or lack of emotional fulfillment in past relationships. The fear of becoming pregnant and being caught cheating on your current partner, Al, mirrors feelings of guilt or anxiety about potentially betraying someone close to you in real life. The mention of buying Plan B and Al's insistence on going to Disney World instead suggests a desire to escape or avoid facing consequences for your actions. The appearance of Barry as a demon with a flaming skull for a head can symbolize feelings of fear, betrayal, or darkness associated with your past relationship with him. The fact that only you can see the demon version of Barry implies that these feelings are internal and not easily visible to others. Your resistance to looking in the mirror and confronting the demon-Barry may reflect a reluctance to face your fears or acknowledge deep-seated emotions related to the past relationship. The moment when your mother enters the room and cannot see the demon-Barry suggests a sense of isolation in dealing with these inner demons and fears on your own. Overall, this dream may be highlighting unresolved emotions, fears, and guilt related to past relationships and betrayals. It could be a reflection of your inner struggles with intimacy, trust, and self-acceptance. Consider exploring these themes further in therapy or through self-reflection to address any underlying issues and find closure.