mountain // hostage

Date: 6/20/2021

Lil’s dream: Me and her driving on a mountain , extremely twisty road and the car was swerving all over ... Mind: D showed up to dinner with a random guy (cousin?) I was having w my friend, Id wanted him to come but assumed he wasn’t because I didn’t hear from him , now that he was there i was unhappy annoyed to see him because of how he was acting — he was telling me a story Bout how they’d bought a gun, i felt he was paranoid like the period when he was dealing with tom. I was irritated with his self absorption and that he’d interrupted my pleasant night . Then maybe he left and i realized this, or maybe he pulled me aside and explained it, or maybe he told me later that day — the man he was with was holding him hostage essentially or he felt he was in danger, but couldn’t let on . he was trying to communicate it to me so I could step in . Guilt and feelings of failure flooded me