She

Date: 12/18/2020

Somehow I ended up on the phone with this random girl and we were totally just like hella fucking with each other. I think at first I was actually annoyed with her for some reason. Oh actually I think she might have barged into the bathroom when I was already having a hell of a time trying to get ready to shower without being interrupted, and I was annoyed she disrupted me and wouldn't go away so I was annoying her in response, but she was right there with me, fucking with me right back. I wish I could remember anything we were actually saying. But yeah, if that is how it started out, it transitioned to a phone conversation pretty early on. And it felt like it always had been a phone conversation, like she was just a random wrong number or something. She was trying to annoy me, I was pretending to be genuine in an attempt to be annoying, and she was doing the same, idk I can't describe it very well and I can't remember anything we were talking about, so oh well. Long story short, eventually we were genuinely having fun with the conversation that stated out annoying. But then I heard her say to someone she was with "I'm ready to go pick him up," and I hesitated and said "who's him?" and she said "he" which is obviously a nonsense response, but I was thinking about pronouns. She was talking about me, said she'd tried all the pronouns and I said there were so many left. I don't think she said anything, so I said, kind of quietly, "my pronouns are she/her..." pause, hesitate, "... they/them" even quieter. Another long-ish pause, then just as quiet, I mumbled something like "I hope that doesn't change anything..." After another long pause, she said "that's a huge bummer." I paused a bit again, then in response I said "THAT'S a huge bummer..." We talked a bit further, I don't remember the convo, but I think it was something like me saying is that really that big a deal? Also she said, maybe to her friend, something like "damnit I wanted to meet a guy like this..." I don't remember the rest of the convo, but I could feel myself waking up slowly. I was trying to hold on to the dream and continue the convo. I was watching myself from an outside perspective, I was like a camera panning around a city, along streets and stuff, watching me on the phone. Then she was in front of me, I think she gave me a kiss, then hugged me goodbye, and I woke up.