second-hand rage

Date: 1/29/2019

I ended up going to chamber choir for the last part of it in my dream, but I was in a really bad mood. I showed up and everyone was on stage with yoga mats so I laid mine down to join them. For some reason Cassidy was there. There were also these middle aged guys, one with his toddler, there to test out the catering for something. I guess Jon, Cassidy’s boyfriend, had offered up some of the strawberries from his garden to them so they were trying those. But when they did they were like “ew those are fucking disgusting” which made Cassidy cry. This was the last straw for ME for some reason so I got up and screamed “FUCK YOU” and KICKED the cooler the strawberries were in as well as a pitcher of almond milk like the ones from Verve off the stage onto the guy and his child. Gary was there all of a sudden and was laughing and applauding me. Ms. Rowley freaked out though obviously. Then I ran back into the dressing room and into the bathroom but instead of a bathroom there was a really small, dark bedroom where @wolf.man from tiktok was sitting playing video games. I was visibly upset so we were talking but I kept trying to flirt with him but it wasn’t working. I guess I stayed in there until the next day because I got an email from the person I’d kicked the things at CC’d with Ms. Rowley and Eileen for whatever reason, saying that we should have a meeting where I should apologize. It ended up happening but in the dressing room while there was a bunch of other stuff happening like middle schoolers dancing. I don’t think I ever apologized.