My dad died 😔

Date: 11/18/2020

First I had a perfect family day. We were in Mexico! My hometown Aguagorda Nini, my brother - same age as me, and I were watching a show .. this Mexican novela that for whatever reason was filmed in my hometown in Mexico. They used like satélite things or whatever to catch films from the past and made them high quality and added them to the show We watched a section of me and nini when we were little ! It was so cute We were calling each other fat haha but like we were so tiny and cute and playing at school with our school uniforms. I felt so happy Then my cousin David came and pushed us lol but it was still a happy day I loved my brother it was so fun Back to real life outside of the tv show / novel, my parents had to leave and come back to the US For whatever reason and my brothers and I stayed in Aguagorda I saw all my uncles there ! My dads brothers and I was like hugging them all? Idk it was so weird they were all around my car and like happy tho? Idk but I was saying my dad says he loves u take care Then nini and I left and we came back to Goshen (US home). Got here to an awful surprise ! Erich was staying at my parents ! He came to visit. My toxic ex. I was so upset and annoyed and I just wanted him to leave. He was so annoying but he was being so manipulative. He kept trying to get me to be with him. I just was doing everything he wanted so he could leave soon I was in goshen We ran so many errands and I was like ok we’re done u can go. And he kept trying so hard. He was being so nice to my parents and my little brother but they couldn’t see he was just being manipulative I asked him to leave and my parents were like no don’t be so mean Anyway days kept passing and I was like literally it’s time for u to leave you can try as much as you want I don’t love you anymore He was so mad and yelling and stuff but took his things out into his car but came back out to give my mom a bunch of money I was like no wth don’t take it He was like it’s for my stay my mom was like it’s ok if he’s so bad as y say you might as well take his money And he “left” I was walking nova, (my baby girl Boston terrier) w my 2 brothers we were in the woods. Santi, my 8yo little brother was so scared and confused at the whole situation. We were talking in the woods.. leaves making crunchy sounds as we ventured into the wildness... all the sudden we heard sounds... was someone there too?? We kept walking and we saw Erich w my mom. They were kissing !! And I was like wtf I was screaming and crying And Erich was like you didn’t want me but your mom does And my mom was like he’s nice idk what your talking about. We’re in love he’s gonna stay I was like wtf!!!!! How about my dad My mom was saying he was older and sick and she couldn’t do it anymore My mom chased me when I ran away from it and then she had santi and nova I was so mad and sad and there was the main road we had walked out to I was trying to kill myself with the cars passing and my mom was crying I didn’t know what to do I was running away from them from everything so I took nova and santi from her And then the only place for me to escape from the pain / from everything was to jump over this fence to leave the woods and go into this ranch w horses or whatever But I had baby nova in my hands and there was a coyote!!!! It was sniffing us and wouldn’t let us go to the fence I was so scared Nini got us a horse lol came back and fought the coyote So we could all jump over and leave We were out for a long time just playing w nova forgetting what we just saw We went back home and my mom and dad were in the kitchen talking :( Erich was there too!!!!! My parents were splitting up Erich was staying in the house my dad was leaving to Mexico I was so mad ! Told them they have no idea he’s like a psychopath he needs to leave But even my dad was manipulated said Erich was young and handy and healthy and would take care of my mom and us better than him ! 😭 My poor dad was so sad He packed up and was leaving I took him to the airport or something He was in the bathroom and I was waiting for him he was taking so long Then I came in and he was crying I was like don’t leave we’ll kick Erich out This can’t happen !!!!! And he said no it’s ok I was like he’s horrible. When I lived w him, he yelled at me everyday, we fought so much I hated my life so much w him that I tried to kill myself. I don’t want my mom to go through that! My dads face went blue he was like what do you mean you tried to kill yourself And I told him about the time Erich made me so upset and sad and depressed I locked myself in my room and broke the screen and tried to jump off the window My dad was so sad I told him this! He started grabbing his left arm and yelling in pain He was having a heart attack!!! I carried him and rushed him to the hospital to the ER They were taking his info I was like stop!!!!!!! Take him in !!!! He’s having a heart attack !!!!! Every second counts Then eventually they took him There was a screen for updates My mom was there and my brothers I didn’t know what to do w myself so I went to see the kids room they were playing Santi was there w other kids They were playing so next to each other I took control over the room and was like no! Kids 6 ft apart I made tape dots on the play ground Matt and said 9 kids at the time - 3 by 3 lol. I’m gonna set a timer of 10 minutes so that other kids can play too so we’ll be switching back and forth each time the timer goes off I was distracted doing this but was so worried Went back to the waiting room I kept reading my dads vitals on a screen things weren’t looking good 😔 I was so sad ! My mom took santi and they went to get food downstairs at the hospital It was like in the middle of the night I walked up to the screen that was just for staff My dad was the only patient left All other screens were blank My dads screen turned on and said Mario Davila has died. Please tell the Davila family we are so sorry My chest hurt so bad !!!!! I couldn’t believe this I went to find nini and told him and we were both crying I said ok let’s go find them I tell santi you tell my mom, she still won’t talk to me 😔 I took santi for a walk and sat him down and told him He was so sad but so understanding My heart hurt so bad Then I woke up 🥺😔😭