I choose yellow

Date: 10/29/2020

My family and i were sad. Life was getting really Overwhelming. I had a pressing need to leave constantly tho. I felt I had somewhere to go. Right before leaving tho, My mom randomly found these plane tickets. And she said before u go we have something to do. We got on the plane. The plane was the weirdest because it was some sort of community. People were preparing for something. And you had to do what you could to overcome the emotions that came w that preparation. Some had to literally ask for help. For me, they offered me many types of relaxing music. They gave me classical lol. I was trying to relax but I kept overhearing this conversation. It was a life story. I closed my eyes and I was seeing the life story as if I was there as the family this discussion: “Mom I just need to be happy. I want to be happy like you were. You are my role model. You always know what to do, you are perfect, you have such a perfect marriage. I hope that my marriage coming is like yours. I will get married soon and I am following your footsteps. I hope I will be as happy as you are. Thanks for guiding me towards this decision” The daughter was reading this to her mom from a peace of paper. As if she had through about telling her this like prepared for it. The mom was agreeing. But the daughter couldn’t see the moms face, she was looking at the piece of paper. I could see her face tho. She was crying. She was in disbelief. She was having memories of all the emotional abuse she’s had a her husband. And how much she’s work to mask it with pretending their marriage is perfect. Years of abuse passed through her eyes over and over again as she looked at her daughter. She was seeing her daughters future in her head. Also full of abuse and pretending to be happy and perfect. The mom was crying to see this being her daughters future also. And the worst part was that she led her up to it. She encouraged it. And now there was nothing else left to do. They were both hopeless... stuck in the flow of life. Stuck in the desire to conform to societal expectations even if they had to sacrifice their true happiness........ Anyway-it was time to land. At this point I was only w my brother. We had a mission. We left the airport. We drove and drive and drove, we had a place to go to. The hills were crazy, so many cliffs, we almost died manny many times traveling in super narrow mountain roads, the trim of land getting narrower and narrower w each roll of the wheel. We finally got to a spot where we couldn’t drive anymore. The roads were to thin for the car to pass through and awaiting on the edge was like a super deadly fall into nothingness. Nini and I left the car there. it was time to continue our trip by foot. We walked and walked in the middle of the mountains. Super away from civilization. We walked and walked and finally got to this Dark turning point There was a cave. And because of the curve we couldn’t see where it led. But we knew we had to go that way, out guts told us to go that way... We hugged before going into nothingness... we knew it was going to be a rough one. But we had to go in there. We went into the cave, pitch blackness all the sudden overwhelming our sight. Overwhelming fear contaminating our souls.... It was a long and tough trip in the nothingness of the cave. It was so scary to not see where we were going, we kept hearing screams and sounds and basically everything that scared us was in there. Like if the cave knew what each of ours biggest fears were in there, and made us feel and experience them as we passed the cave. We almost have up in emotional pain so many times, we fear was overwhelming, we almost gave up..... I was crying in pain and really wanted to turn back. And just when I felt I couldn’t do it anymore, we saw a light at the end of the tunnel... We had made it to the end of the cave. We got to the other side. It was the scariest thing we had ever seen, going up to the top of the hill, we know to embrace ourselves for the biggest challenge yet.... We kept passing through tombstone. Had had to skip them and walk around them to keep walking. The road was so uphill but we stuck together. We had to make it to the top. This part of the road was extremely steep, but we had to make it to the top. The top seemed like the end of the trip. This was our destination. The whole place was so strange. It was like an old stone made castle. With lights that came off little holes. The light projected into our souls. And it made us feel fear. Each time we crossed one of those holes, there was a weird high pitched sound coming out of them. Like the sound of a high pressure pipe, with air or has escaping from it. (Idk why the smell of sulfur just came into my head as I describe the gas - but idt this was part of my dream) Anyway - we made it to the top..... we were so scared. We had never been so scared in our lives.. There was a person waiting for us at the top. The place was a church. a church with towers and windows but an overwhelming sense fear wrapped out souls as we saw the face of the man waiting for us at the top. She was dressed in black, very formal and very out together. He was thin and tall. He looked like a priest. He asked us to come inside. Nini and I were so scared. Almost holding on to each other in fear as we walked into the old stone castle looking building. There were many of the same holes in there. But each of the holes was bigger now because we were closer to them. They were cages, and they had beasts in them. The priest pretended it was the most normal thing to have those beats there. He said to walk around them when he noticed we were so afraid of them. The closer we were getting to the top, the end of our destination, we started seeing more and more of the cages being open!!! The beats were starting to peak out. The closer and closer we got to the final place, the cage holes were bigger and bigger until we finally started seeing the beasts coming out of them! They were huge large and scary looking black dogs. Like Dobermans... but they were huge huge huge! With spiky neck collars on their necks attacked to heavy chains, and huge spiky and sharp teeth.. They started growling so bad as we walked by them. Some stated at us and showers their teeth as they kept growling, they were the scariest thing I had ever seen. Some of them starting walking towards us! Intense fear overwhelmed me. Right before they got to us to kill us, the chains would outstretch, and stop them! I was so close to their stinky mouths so many times!!! Then we started seeing loose beasts! They were protecting something, the priest smiled. The beasts surrounding us, making it clear that any wrong step, and they’d kill us, torture us, cause us pain... their teeth showing, saliva leaving their mouths... they were hungry for pain. The priest asked us to sit down. He offered us two pieces of candy, one yellow and one red. Nini and I had to pick our color.... I want yellow, I want yellow, I want yellow...... he grabbed the yellow golden glowing candy... it was sort of like a huge gummy. I want yellow I want yellow I want yellow... I kept repeating over and over again.. I was about to take a bite of the golden candy.... I was about to eat the sun kissed gummy... it was in my hands.... the juicy sweetness of its inside so close to my mouth. It was finally in my heads. I want yellow I want yellow I want yellow. I kept thinking I was about to take a bite of it... then I woke up