The double thumb

Date: 5/7/2021

Lots of crazy dreams last night many of them adventurous and having lots of strnGers and nothing to do w love. But ofc the only one I remember does. In a previous dream a team of friends and I were doing something wild in some waterway.. getting back home involved trekking thru underground tunnels. I was wearing a hippie skirt. Soaking wet and near death. At some point I injured my hand severesly Flash forward to another dream, I realize I actually split my thumb in half almost exactly and it’s already healed down to the bottom smoothly , so I have 2 separate appendages. I’m in love w my weird fucked up new finger. But I show it to D... but d looks like my dad too, he looks like all men. And he reacts horribly and is grossed out, hates it, want me to go to the ER. Everything is ruined for me , it’s no longer something I can love ab myself As long As I’m with him. I have a fucking breakdown and it’s incredibly embarrassing . I don’t know what all happens but I remember thinking this has to be the end , I used to have the power to make things sacred and peaceful for myself . I need to be alone again .