Lonely Party

Date: 10/6/2020

Was at a party, I was in one room that felt partially like a gymnasium or library, partially outside. At first I was trying to put on a bunch of shirts at once but it was too hard and I wasted a bunch of time so I loaded a checkpoint and tried again. At one point I somehow walked past the house that Nick Nation and Spencer Kitchen lived at with some other roommates. I was imagining some sarcastic conversation about how they have "enough alcohol" as I walked past their alcohol section of their house lol and it looked like the booze section at the grocery store but with a shitload of beers too. I couldn't end up connecting with anyone or finding anything fun to do. I looked out the window and saw Blake peeing in the yard. I collapsed onto the floor, feeling very depressed, and just looked around and watched everyone milling about having fun. Someone came to to me and asked how I was doing, I sadly replied, "I feel so far away from all my friends." "That's cuz everyone drunk" they said, and I realized they were probably right. Fuck should I have been getting drunk this whole time too? I couldn't figure out how to load a checkpoint anymore, I checked the clock wondering if I should start drinking now, it was 9:49pm. I felt like that was too late, and my spirits deflated even further.