Another Loss

Date: 7/10/2024

The one that got away, the love of my life, Tommy, he came back to town to visit me. We were having a great time. It was just like when we were 19/20 again. In one part we were walking around what appeared to be like a mall. The next day he came with me to my college campus. My class was upstairs. I had a test to take. The professor, a plump black woman, made a remark abt how I got a 'C' on an average test the other day, but this test was difficult and I was getting every answer correct. It was that moment I realized that if I just put a little effort into things, I could actually succeed. Having finished the test, I was able to leave. Tommy and I remained on campus, driving around, running, when it started storming we played in the rain. Somehow, however, we lost our clothes. Both of us. Another test was coming up, and I had to make it back to class. We both ran up the stairs to the class door soaking wet and naked. We were doing our best to "cover our parts", but ofc other people weren't happy about this. We were begging the ppl around us to give us a shirt or something. They wouldn't. The professor came out. She told me that something had happened with my admissions and I cdnt take this test. She said I was allowed one zero this semester, so to just take a zero on this test and she would figure out what was wrong and try to get it fixed. So, still naked and soaking wet, Tommy and I ran down the stairs. On our way down, someone threw down a lace nightie and a "wife beater". Tommy threw on the nightie and I put on the wife beater. He looked ridiculous and it barely covered him, which resulted in him and I laughing hysterically! We then parted ways (I suppose he went to his hotel?) and agreed to meet again in the morning. But morning came, and Tommy never showed. I waited and waited. I drove around looking for him. He had bought a new cellphone when he had arrived, so I went through all the receipts to see if I could find his new number. But there was no success anywhere. Then my professor called. She said she tried to fix the problem with my admissions, but couldn't. She said maybe next semester I could try again. I thought to myself, "Even when I try, and I start to succeed, something happens that's out of my control and causes me to fail". Everything felt hopeless. Day turned into night and I still hadn't heard from Tommy. The next morning, I prayed he would show up. But again, as morning turned to noon, I knew I would never see him again. I didn't understand why. We were having such a great time. Why did he disappear? Why didn't he say goodbye? Why couldn't I be with him? It was yet another failure.

AI generated interpretation This dream seems to reflect feelings of loss, abandonment, and a sense of things being out of your control. The presence of Tommy, who represents the one that got away and the love of your life, suggests unresolved feelings and longing for a past relationship or connection. The dream portrays a sense of nostalgia and longing for a time when things were simpler and happier. The setting of the dream in a college campus, with references to tests and admissions, may symbolize a sense of achievement and success, as well as a desire for validation and recognition in your waking life. The interaction with the professor and the tests could symbolize self-imposed pressure to succeed and perform well academically or in other areas of your life. The imagery of running around naked and searching for clothes amidst a storm may represent vulnerability, feeling exposed or unprepared in a challenging situation, and the need to cover up or protect oneself from judgment or criticism. This could indicate feelings of insecurity or fear of being judged by others in your waking life. The recurring theme of disappointment, missed opportunities, and things not going as planned in the dream may reflect underlying fears of failure, rejection, and the inability to control outcomes in your waking life. The unresolved issues with admissions and the inability to take the test could symbolize feelings of being held back or unable to move forward due to external obstacles or circumstances beyond your control. The disappearance of Tommy and the unanswered questions surrounding his absence in the dream may signify feelings of abandonment, loss, and the inability to understand or accept why certain relationships or connections have ended in your waking life. The repeated waiting and searching for him could reflect a longing for closure or reconciliation with past relationships or unresolved emotions. Overall, this dream may be highlighting feelings of insecurity, vulnerability, and a sense of powerlessness in certain aspects of your life. It may be a reflection of unresolved emotions or conflicts that are impacting your ability to move forward and find closure in past relationships or situations. It could be beneficial to explore these feelings further and consider how they may be influencing your thoughts and emotions in your waking life.