Billie, divorce, snuggling, etc...

Date: 7/27/2019

Some rural Latin American town, lots of ladders. Locals could somehow just fall the length of the ladder and catch themselves at the end. Billie Eilish had played a show there recently lol. Was about to I guess leave my spouse who I've been with for nearly ten years (we've been having real relationship strain for the first time this past year because I realized I was trans and have started transitioning, but anyway) and there was this shitty not-real song playing with these lyrics: "There's nooothiiing to feeear.... So whyyy aaam I heeere... (repeat?) ...... without you?" And anyway when it got to that last bit I had just parked in the shade at the top of a small hill with my potential energy, ready to take off whenever, i guess, and I got filled with panic that actually woke me up 😩 Went back to sleep and a lot more happened... Talked about how my brother and sister in law raised their standards of going out and now pay at least $50 every time lol (not real, far as I know), there was something about old pictures in North Carolina that we never picked up, uhh..... Oh I ended up snuggling pretty intimately with my good friend and was concerned about whether it would be considered cheating, but I decided it would be fine lol. Snuggling is too compelling. I think we might have also been fairly naked lol but pretty sure nothing sexual was going on lol.