Being a Parent

Date: 6/22/2024

There was SO much going on, but one of the main things I remember was that I was.. I think I was one of three parents to a child, a little toddler. I don't remember who the other parents were, but I think they were referred to by the kid as Mom and Dad, and then I was just referred to by my name. I was having an unrealistically in-depth convo with the kid, part of which involved me telling them about mental health and the effects of ketamine lol. Even tho I was trying to keep it short and simple, I kept thinking "this is way too many words/too much information". But the kid seemed to be understanding everything and responding accordingly. Then the kid said something sweet and loving to me that I unfortunately can't remember, I think it was some sort of compliment or expression of appreciation, so I was like "awwwh thank you! .I love you :)" and we were holding hands and I kissed one of their hands and it was really sweet and I was like omg I'm a parent! It was a lovely moment. A bit unfortunate to wake up remembering that I'll never be a parent and that I struggle to show care to people sometimes :( Other moments include finding my old mirrors on the stairs in Neets' house which also seemed to be a big school full of activity that I felt like I'd already gone through, so I was an "alum" or whatev I guess lol. Trying to bring home way too many groceries and also I was driving a little go-kart and people across the street were talking about coming over and stealing it but I kept having to pick up groceries off the ground. And talking to someone about how they saw a show with one of the Broad City girls in it, and me saying "oh probably Abby, seems like she's doing more these days, which is surprising cuz I really thought it'd be Ilana if I'd had to have guessed who would have ended up doing more after Broad City".