Opting for death

Date: 10/5/2021

This one girl I used to date and I were on a sinking ship trying to escape the zombie apocalypse. Because it was sinking, we had to climb our way through the rooms and floors of the ship. As if the apocalypse was not bad enough, we had to move away faster from people who were on our tail as well. This was a hard task in itself and to make matters worse, she was hesitant and people assumed I kidnapped her. (The logic is a little off in this dream) After climbing multiple sections, we finally reached the end of the line and we were stuck. The people that were looking for us were gaining on us and the girl decided she wanted to be "rescued", motivating her to give herself up. Knowing that I would be labeled a kidnapper as well as apocalypse initiator (i just remembered what I did), I decided to take my own life. There were piranhas in the lake in which the ship was sinking and I located an exit into the water. They went to town on me and I died, however I respawned on the ship in the same danger I was in before. At this point, I knew I was dreaming and had to wake up. I opted for a different way out and grabbed a pair of scissors with which to cut my wrist. To my surprise, it was blunt and I essentially used it as a saw. It took me a while to break the skin and reach the main artery. I cut multiple times and only grazed the surface until finally the skin broke. Under the thick layer of cut skin, it looked like the flesh of a freshly drained animal carcass. I could see the bones and tendons, but my main artery (or what looked like it) was still in tact. I continued to cut at it using fewer tries than before. The blood started to ooze out thick like tootbpaste and woke up shortly after that.