Being Emotionally Cold to My Mom

Date: 7/16/2021

I had two weird dreams last night. The one was I was laying in bed where I was actually sleeping irl. My phone got like 20 texts so I looked and saw that it was my ex. I opened the texts and saw it was just a bunch of random photos of her since we broke up. Like moments that happened in her life since the break up idk it was weird it felt real too. I remember thinking “wake up if this is a dream” and I couldn’t so I thought it was real. The next dream was I was at the beach with my family. My mom was trying to hug me and I kept pushing her off and saying, “Mom I’m 20 years old stop being weird”. She fell to the ground and started crying while saying, “I just want to know that my kids love me you never show any affection.” It was weird because I was totally apathetic and couldn’t have cared less that I reduced my mom to tears. The second dream was on my mind when I woke up. It’s strange cause when I went down stairs in the morning my mom brought up an emotional topic that’s been bothering her with my sister. I made sure to show her I cared cause the dream was on my mind the whole time. I felt like I had that dream for a reason and the reason was the conversation she brought up about my sister. I think it was preparing me to have patience and show I care because my mom can be overly emotional about things and ig I get impatient and it comes across as I don’t care when I do.