Saying goodbye

Date: 2/23/2022

Bastian is with me, it’s my first dream with him since he’s passed. He’s healthy, but I’m worried about him. I don’t want certain people to find him. I find a group of people who are learning empaths. I ask them if they can help protect him by making him invisible to people searching for his energy. They say that they will try but don’t know how. I explain about visualizing a dark sphere around him, to protect him. We move him. We are also looking for someone and Bastian is helping me. We come to my grandmas barn, and who we are looking for is there. There is a loft in the barn and the person goes to the loft. I tell Bastian to go around back and stop him. I go up the stairs to the loft and I am suddenly worried about the person hurting Bastian so I call out to him but he doesn’t come. There is a cat in the loft and there’s something wrong with them. I want to help the cat out of the loft but she doesn’t want me to. I leave the loft and look for Bastian and I think he’s there- he’s okay. We go back the way we came and I’m in my grandmas house. We start in the study and walk through to the front porch and my grandma is there, laying on the table and wrapped in her blankets, with the blankets tucked firmly all around her. My mom is there and explains that grandma is dead and it’s time to say goodbye. I go up to her and her face is the face I’m most familiar with from childhood, older but not smaller and sunken, she still looks alive and healthy. I lean down to kiss her forehead and cheek and she opens her eyes and says very sassily “Do i look that dead? I’m not dead, I only look it apparently,” and I explain to her that she is dead. She closes her eyes again. I say goodbye to her. I am in Maryland still, sitting on the hood of a moving car and there are two other girls in the car, there is no windshield and no one is driving but the car is moving. I think the girls are my sisters. The one on the right opens a capsule and pours out this brown powder and says it’s something fun, I taste a little bit of it and it’s bitter and unappealing. I ask her if it’s heroin and she says no it’s some party drug and I’m glad I didn’t sniff it. No we are walking in the corridor of an outdoor market where there are tattoo shops and she asks me if I want to go do some molly at this party, she says the only thing is it’s stamped. We walk through a tattoo shop where there’s powder everywhere, a dark of white acrid powder and it’s supposed to be molly but they way they’re making it isn’t pure. A man in the shop takes a knife and cuts it into the powder then snorts it. We leave. I don’t want to go to the party with her because stamped molly means it goes on your skin and is slowly absorbed and lasts for a long time, and you can’t leave because you can’t drive yourself and no one else can drive because they’re all fucked up. She goes to the party and I watch her back get stamped with a giant design of molly. I walk around for a minute and people are all rolling, but I don’t trust the person doing the stamping he seems like type to want to take advantage. I have to leave and try to get Sarah to come with me but she won’t. I go. I am in a different time now, it’s closer to the beginning and end of time. I am in a giant rolling field that has a grid pattern imprinted all over it. In a large depression of the field is a giant machine, it’s like a cube with silver paneling that has switches on it, and on top are small but extremely powerful turbines. This machine is the key to either the end or the beginning.