Different stages of sexuality

Date: 5/14/2018

This dream started off as me as an adult. But I wasn’t me, or was I? I was having an affair with a married man. I was a young adult. When we were together there was a lot of passion. Really intense. Then one day I’m dancing/working out in a woman’s living room. She was a typical house wife. Friendly. Complemented me on my dancing . I remember dancing to familiar songs (Happy and Rebel Yell. Boy are those a stretch from two different types of music). She had a daughter I would be going to school with. She was a little younger than me. I was teaching her about birds. She was showing me there were a lot of birds in their yard. Which seemed like it was in the country. There were a lot of cardinals. I could see the red in my dream (I could see lots of colors in this dream). Some birds were big and fat. Molting it seemed. One was stuck in a tree trying to get out. It finally fell out and the girl picked him up and wedged him back in the tree. I remember thinking how comical it was. Then I was in a room getting dressed for school. I remember having a white, very lace, dry see through top on with no bra. I could see my young firm breast. I could hear the girl coming down the hall. I rushed to change my shirt. When she got in the room she told me what I was wearing I could not. Because we had to dress just like the principle (weird). After I got changed I remember telling the little girl I was leaving. She asked if she gave me kisses again if I would stay. I started telling her about how I liked women too. I got really emotional and said my goodbyes to her. Packed up my suitcase and was sneaking out of the house so the mom would not see me. As I was leaving I saw the girls dad. The man I was having the affair with. I started crying as I ran. Out of the house dressed in pants, shirt, blazer and high heels. Running as quick as I could down their street. Turning onto another street covered with trees. Running as fast as I can.