Dream Journal Ultimate
Date: 6/3/2021
By zeitfaster
I woke up in real life around 4:20 AM (lol) and couldn't get back to sleep for a couple of hours. I did bodyscan meditation and felt my guts shift, and noticed the weird structure of my face. I was thinking about I really don't know a whole lot and really am not that smart, so I should do away with any conviction otherwise. As I was having trouble drifting to sleep and feeling kind of sore and cold I started yearning for somebody to lie next to me. But then I told myself to snap out of it and just handle reality. Finally I drift off to sleep, and the last thing I think is I'd really really like to have an amazing dream, maybe with an attractive girl involved. The dream is me owning a yellow bus. There was some sort of cataclysmic event and I thought there'd be nothing to lose by getting a yellow bus like I'm playing Simpsons hit n run. There's these tall and narrow hotel transylvania style mansions we live in with semi-gothic interior. It feels like Dark Shadows, but we're in a kind of apocalyptic setting, it's cold and gloomy. There's this other family that I'm in some kind of formal competition with. I'm having trouble remembering what the game was exactly, but it was like an open world competition ie not basketball. And there was something illegal about me having this bus where I was spending so much time in it. I was driving the bus all over, I end up at our house which conveniently has this fence alley in front of if where I can park the bus, and I crash it when I park lol. Then we have some sort of witchcraft dinner. Then I'm climbing on horizontal tree trunks and running through tree tunnels in a sort of skyrim-ey forest. I do a couple laps and on the second one I have this Jordan Petersonesque monologue running in my head like, "it's bloody right you don't like to play those skyrim games, because they speak too powerfully to the archetype of a hero who persists into the unknown, and it's an unwelcome reminder for someone whose life is in disarray, whether they realize why it bothers them or not" . Then I woke up. A takeaway here is that a good way to meditate is to deconstruct the stuff floating around in your head actively. Realize what a loosely bound collection of icons and vague concepts you are and let that lull you out of one dream state and into the other.